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My name is Louise Joy and I’m a self confessed scaredy-cat when it comes to boys and feelings, especially when the two are involved. I’m pretty sure I’m not the only one who feels like this sometimes, but right now I really do feel like the only one who feels like this.
The weekend before last I was out with some friends, doing the ‘need to pee’ jig on the spot whilst waiting for a portaloo to be free (we were at a music festival) and I glanced around, saw a boy and nearly had a heart attack, for recently I’ve been interested in this boy and he may or may not know. You see, I didn’t actually tell him directly (god no, that kind of honesty is reserved for drunken 3am confessions and five or so Sambuca shots in a row, unfortunately I am unable to find that ‘balance’ and I’ll either ignore a guy completely or go overboard when drunk until he thinks I’m a psycho. Only once did I find a necessary balance, back on one cold Christmas Eve and that turned out to be the first, last and only time I ever ended up being hungover on Christmas day. Never again. But I did nail it pretty much the night before, yknow, in the spirit of Christmas and all…) but the mere idea of him maybe knowing nonetheless? That freaks me the F*CK out.
I don’t know at what point we (or maybe just me) decided that it was never a good thing for someone to know you’re interested in them, but it just isn’t. All of a sudden my fun day out turned into a fun day out spent getting drunk and avoiding him, because god forbid I should actually have to act normal around him in the knowledge that he could know that I maybe find him a little bit attractive.
In my mind, once that seal is broken, once a guy knows, I assume that he then thinks I’m a complete and utter freak and spends his time laughing with his friends telling them that I’m a psycho who wants his babies. WHICH SIMPLY ISN’T TRUE. I don’t know why I am so scared of a guy knowing that I find him attractive because, really, what’s so bad and psycho about that? Just because I find someone attractive that doesn’t even mean I want to do them or date them or any of that palavar. It just means they have a nice face (and usually in my case, some nice hair and/or skinny fit jeans too.) If someone found me attractive – even if I didn’t feel the same way – I’d be bloody chuffed.

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Maybe I should take a leaf out of Shia LaBeouf’s book and walk around with a paper bag on my face, only replaced with the words ‘I DO NOT LIKE YOU ANYMORE. I WAS DRUNK/EMOTIONAL/JOKING (delete as appropriate)’
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WHY IS IT SO SCARY? Why do I assume that if a guy knows and I bump into him, he’s going to laugh in my face and be all like ‘hahaha you like me, you suck!’. Really? Do boys really do that?? Do they talk to their friends, all nonchalantly cradling a glass of wine in their hand and smug look on their face saying things like ‘Oh her? No, she’s just obsessed with me. She wants the D and every letter after that, and I’m PRETTY sure she follows me around like a lost puppy…’? I don’t know any boy that drinks wine, but this is the image that appears in my head and it makes me want to zip my mouth up and never even SMILE at a member of the opposite sex again in case this really does happen behind closed doors.


I mean, in all honesty, I suppose the worst that could happen is that he’ll probably avoid me for a bit because he doesn’t feel the same way and doesn’t want to give off the wrong impression…and the best case scenearo would be that he does feel the same way, in which case, I suppose it’s kind of worth the risk. But it’s just too darn bloody scary, so instead I ignore them unless they speak to me first and assume that they are mind readers and if they haven’t made a move yet then they’re clearly not interested. Hey, I didn’t say my logic is sound…

And I know what you’re all thinking. I must have manned up at some point when it comes to past relationships? Nope. Just nope. I met my first boyfriend in the men’s toilet of a pub, a local haunt for all underage drinkers at the time, and if I remember rightly, we were introduced by a friend because neither of us had been kissed in 48 hours. And I met my last ex on a night out, bumped into him when waiting for the taxi and proudly (aka drunkenly) asked for his number. At NO point whatsoever in either of these relationships did I make any advance on them or admit to any feelings without being sure that they felt the same way, which is an ideal way to avoid any embarrassment.

But…god forbid…what if these guys are just as nervous or scared as us?!

So tell me, how the bloody well in hell does anyone ever break this cycle and find this magical balance that only awesome people seem to possess? Does this balance even EXIST? Or are said people liars and actually just as lost as us mere mortals, not willing to admit that half their game took place via Tinder after having a few too many?
Answers on a post card please. And don’t suggest Sambuca, because I’m already well and truly aware that this does NOT work…

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I still have a few lipsticks to review and today I’m reviewing the one I’ve probably gotten the most use out of. 

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This supposedly coral shade isn’t so coral – more so pink with a coral twinge – but I love it nonetheless. It’s a beautiful and bold bright colour perfect for the summer and not too in your face. It’s subtle shade has made it perfect for work and on a day to day basis. This lipstick was my best friend on Saturday when I spent the day relaxing with some friends in the sun and watching bands at a local music festival.
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The only thing I don’t like about this shade is the glitter undertones as I feel it makes the colour less sophisticated, however there isn’t too much so it’s still acceptable to wear during the day as opposed to just at night for example. I won’t go into detail about the lipstick itself, as I covered how long lasting it was and all those details in this post about another shade of lipstick from the same collection. However, I did really like this colour and wore it a lot since. It’s not in your face and isn’t a show stopping shade, but it’s a perfect girly colour for summer.

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I’d suggest that this is the type of shade that would suit anyone, regardless of their skin type, tone or colour! What do you think? Do you think this is a shade that’s too subtle or would you happily wear this type of colour to work for example? Let me know!

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So today I have something a little different to offer you, and it’s a kind of post I’ve been wanting to do since I first started the blog. Although I love all my blog content, at first I wanted to try and offer something a bit different or a bit of everything, such as advice, recipes, money saving tips, features on more ‘serious’ issues and interviews too. 
Therefore I thought it would be a great idea to bag myself an interview with Mwaka Grace, a model and an old friend of mine who I’ve known since high school. We went on to study the same course at college and I have fond memories of the college days and all the fun we had. We still meet for lunch when we can (when she’s not jetting off to luxurious locations for shoots anyway!) and I’m immensely blown away at how successful she has become, especially since we don’t have many positive things to offer from our town!
Mwaka has just won the two titles of Miss Popularity Bedfordshire and First Runner up and is preparing for both the semi-final and Final night next year. I caught up with her to ask her a bit about what life is like for her being a model, and I also grilled her about her thoughts on bloggers!
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1. So you’ve just won the title of Miss
Popularity Bedfordshire and First Runner up, meaning you’ll go onto the Finals – congratulations! Can you
tell me about the process involved in it all – from the moment you entered to the moment
you took part in the final competition?
I started
by sending in some photos and filling in an application form online for the
competition, and then got an email inviting me to attend an
interview which was followed by a call from the organizer. The first stage was
more like an audition, where as a group they explained what was required of us
and what the competition involved. The second part was when we individually had
photos taken. A week later I got a text telling me that I had gone through and
was in the competition, then I also got an email with information of what was going
to happen next.
Before the
final night we had to attend boot camp training, a photo shoot with the Luton
rugby club and rehearsals too.
2. What was it like the moment you were told you’d won? What
was the first thing that went through your head?
The first
time I heard my name and number called was for the Miss Popularity and that was great, but I must admit as soon as I got off the stage with the sash and crown I felt my disappointment as the main goal was to win the actual title. When it came
to the announcements for the top three winners and my name was called as first
runner up, I couldn’t believe it! I froze and the girls backstage hugged me
while yelling ‘that’s you – go! you won!’ – it me a few seconds to actually get
myself on stage. As the reining Miss England took off the miss popularity crown
and sash to replace it with First Runner up title and sash I felt excited and
very overwhelmed as this meant that I will be going to the Miss England Finals.
3. What did all your friends and family say when they found
out?
My family
were extremely happy for me and all felt a sense of pride. My friends were just
happy for me because they knew how much this meant to me and the
opportunities this could bring for my modelling career.
4. What made you want to get into modelling and how did you
get involved?
I first
started modelling for fashion students at college, it came natural to me and I
enjoyed it. I moved into London for University and started to get more involved by building my portfolio and going to agencies and castings.
5. Do you have any advice for people who want to go into
modelling?
Anytime you
get invited or approached by a scout always take someone with you to meetings
and make sure they are at official place at official office hours. Don’t part
with any money for any reason at all and never sign anything until you are
absolutely sure it is right for you.
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6. How proud do you feel winning and finally representing or
bringing some positivity from Luton (which is known for so much negativity)
having lived there?





I am very
proud to represent Luton and Bedfordshire, to be able to highlight the good
that comes from Luton is an honor. The aim of the competition is called ‘Beauty
with a Cause’. To be able to show the rest of England that Luton/Bedfordshire
has a lot to offer is great.
7. Can you tell me anything about behind the scenes of the
whole event – do you have any funny or embarrassing stories or tricks of the
trade to reveal?
The girls
can be a little bit evil, the best thing to do is try to make friends with
everyone – even the girls that seem mean. You have to remember not to be
intimidated by anyone. You’ll find that they all have insecurities about
something. Behind the scenes of the show is extremely chaotic, you have very
little time to to change into the next outfit. There were a couple of
breakdowns that I saw where these girls just could not take the pressure and
stress, they were in tears but sadly you can’t stop to help you have to get
ready and get out there.
8. What are your thoughts on the size of ladies who appeared
in the competition – were there any larger ladies involved? What do you think
about the use of photoshopping in glossy magazines and the use of always thin
models on the catwalk – are these issues similar in the beauty pageants you
take part in or do you find they’re more laid back and anyone is welcome no
matter what size.
To be
completely honest size is a massive issue. In beauty pageants like Miss
Bedfordshire the winners will go on to compete for the Miss England Title,
which will Lead to Miss World. To compete at that level with Girls from all
over the world you have to be in top shape physically your body, your skin,
hair, nails and everything.
Being a
pageant model and being a high fashion model are very different. As a first
time pageant model I found it easier as they are more lenient when it comes to
weight as long you are lean/fit and healthy that’s okay.
In high
fashion you cannot be bigger than size six, designers make the clothes you will
model and you have alter your body to fit the clothes, they are not fitted to
whatever your body type is. That is why there is a lot of dieting involved,
which even I have had to do but you have to be careful not to take it to
extremes.

In the
modelling industry that is how the fashion world works you have to be thin it
is an unspoken/unwritten rule. You don’t fit the clothes, you don’t book the
job, simple.
9. Lets talk about bloggers! Do you follow any fashion blogs? What do you think about bloggers
becoming more prominent in the fashion industry – do you think it’s a
good thing that designers are choosing to branch out and expand with the
upcoming rise of bloggers or do you think it should be left to the
professionals?
I do not religiously follow one blogger in particular but I do look through blogs for
fashion inspiration and how to put together the newest trends. I believe
its an amazing thing how designers are choosing bloggers as a way to
showcase their work. It adds a more personal and achievable quality to
fashion which I think makes people more interested in it. I am all for
bloggers displaying fashion although on the downside it sometimes
becomes more about the blogger than the fashion and can be bias.
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12. As a model yourself have you – or would you ever – work with a blogger?
As a model I would definitely work with a blogger from the most
outrageous to the more conservative because I’m open minded and I think
fashion is not something that should be confined into one specific
thing, it should be free and expressive.

13.
A lot of bloggers take a very amateur approach to modeling clothes –
often we just take photos of ourselves in our rooms against a plain wall
and using a timed camera. Do you think this works just as well as the
real thing? Do you have any tips on doing it yourself?
I think that the amateur approach is fine but to take it to another
level, these bloggers can use a friend to take the photos for them this
way they have a clear image/details or ask a friend to model for them
this way they can be more creative with where photos are taken, angle
and what’s in the pic.
14. What’s next for you then?
The next
step is to prepare for the semi-final this year as well as the Final night
which will be held next year. I will keep modelling, going for castings and
building my portfolio.
15. Finally, is there anything else you’d like to add?
Just that I
thank God for my family and friends for all their support!

I’d like to give a huge thanks to Mwaka for chatting with me! It was definitely a lot of fun trying to get into her head and hear her thoughts on bloggers – we don’t often hear what models think of bloggers, so I found this interesting! Did you enjoy the interview? Would you like to see a similar feature blogged about again in future? Let me know!

*All images are taken from Mwaka’s social networking pages and still have their source details printed on the photos.

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Last week, I posted about a collection of L’Oreal Paris lipsticks I picked up (which was a total bargain btw), and reviewed the first of five lipsticks in this haul. Tonight I’m reviewing the second shade!

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I won’t go into too much detail about the lipstick, as I went into detail with the last review, although admittedly this was from a different ‘collection’ I suppose. This lipstick, unlike the first one, is actually an exclusive lipstick chosen by one of six L’Oreal Paris spokespersons. This one is designed by Liya Kebede and is a gorgeous chocolate brown shade – certainly something a bit different!

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However, I did find that this wasn’t as long lasting and was a little greasy. It took a good few coats to get the colour to build up, but even then I found it had a far too shiny/greasy look. The colour alone was really pretty and different, but I didn’t think it suited me specifically. I think it probably is a shade I’d wear again when feeling particularly brave and I do feel it will suit certain skin types, just not mine specifically.

The lipstick itself looks like a much richer chocolate shade, but when applied it’s more of a soft nude brown, one that would surely compliment the right eye makeup!

Moving on, overall I did find the lipstick to be a standard and pretty lipstick, but not one that was quite for me. The packaging was really cute however and definitely looked exclusive. I loved the idea that the shade was a little different, even purple and real dark gothic red shades are becoming more and more popular, but brown shades isn’t something I see often. I’ll definitely be keeping this and using it for when I feel confident enough, but as a day to day shade I don’t think it’s ideal!

What do you think about this colour? Let me know!

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There is just one problem I have with my new job, and unfortunately it’s a big one. Apart from that, everyone is fine. I get plenty of hours, lots of opportunities to pick up overtime and a day or two off during the week to catch up on sleep/Orange is the New Black/stuff my face. It’s only half an hour away by bus and everyone in store is so friendly and welcoming. Except….except…EVERYTHING IS SO DAMN PRETTY AND STYLISH AND I WANT IT ALL.
 
It is absolutely killing me being faced with so many pretty clothes on a regular basis and it’s so tough not buying it all. I’ve always liked H&M clothes but I was never a huge shopper there, but now that I work with the clothes all the time I find so many beautiful hidden gems. I also get to see how different looks are put together and really cool ways to style things (because lets face it, I’m terrible at styling myself but even the best of us bloggers have to get our inspiration somewhere).
 
I love that there’s different ranges in store too but that you can also head down to stock up on your very basics and still be faced with a fair range of items, so that that plain white top you really need doesn’t necessarily have to be a standard white top that everyone has.
 
Anyway, there’s a hell of a lot that I want right now, but for the meantime here is a little wish list of things I want the most and will no doubt be purchasing with my first paycheck..
 

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1. Jersey vest top, £3.99 | 2. Jumpsuit, £12.99 | 3. Multistrand necklace £7.99 | 4. Sandles with laces £24.99 | 5. Twill shorts £14.99
 
H&M have some really lovely stuff in at the moment; modern but classy work wear and lots of bold and bright items ideal for music festivals. However, I’ve really been eyeing up the above products.
 
I love the jersey vest top which is a really thin and loose fit top yet still bang on trend at the same time. It’s the perfect thing to pair with skinny jeans when having a lazy day and will still look stylish. The jumpsuit is probably my favourite item at all. It’s basic and light weight but it’s so cute! I think it’ll look great with a little belt and lots of gold accessories (perhaps the statement gold necklace?). I also think it’s perfect for some gigs this summer. The shorts are another wardrobe staple, simply because I don’t really have any stylish shorts. A lot of mine are just simple denim shorts, so again I think these will be a great way to look more made up when just lazing in the sun this summer. The shoes and necklace speak for themselves really, don’t they? They’re just really pretty!
 
I can’t wait to revamp my wardrobe once I get paid and without a doubt that playsuit is first on my list…
 
What do you think? Are you a fan of H&M for their basics? Or do you prefer to shop elsewhere, like Primark for example, for even cheaper items? Let me know!
 
P.S Please excuse my shoddy graphic design skills!
 


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